how.did.this.happen?

{me & my first amazing at 6 weeks}

sometimes, something that may be good for one of our tiny amazings, may not be so good for us...
like sending said tiny amazing to preschool.
one word can describe my feelings about this---sad.
but, as any good mommy does, it's called 'it's not about me. it's about them.'
if it were about me, i would keep my jake home with me until next september.
but, since this is about my jake, we will send him in december. {tear.sniff.tear}
this little man of ours is ready.
mommy, not so much.
but then again, i don't think i will ever really feel "ready."

my only question....how.did.this.happen?