how.did.this.happen?

{jake at 1 week}

how is it possible, that my first amazing, my sweet jake, is starting pre-school tomorrow?
how is it possible that my little man, who i remember the exact moment i found out i was preggers with him, is now 3 1/2 years old and i will be driving to his first day of school tomorrow?
how.did.this.happen?
anyone who knows anything about me, knows that i don't want him to go.
i don't want to drive him to school tomorrow morning.
i don't want this day that i have been dreading for about 1 1/2 months now, to actually be here.
i don't want to be without him for 5 hours every week.
BUT, i also know that this is the best thing for him.
jake is so ready for this.
he is so ready to head out with his backpack on and walk towards new adventures...

{here's to this mommy keeping her sobs quiet enough on the way home, so my henry & william don't hear me...}