{sneak peek} our "little gentlemen's" birthday party

...more to follow...

my henry. my TWO YEAR OLD.

HAPPY.HAPPY.HAPPY birthday, my little man, my 2nd amazing, my fun adventurer, my henry.
i simply cannot even believe that you are TWO YEARS OLD today...

i remember seeing your face for the first time---i was so.incredibly.in.crazy.love with you...even though you were screaming--all the time...and the 2nd day you were in our lives, i think it can, to this point, be considered one of the.most.difficult.24.hours.of my life.
i don't think there were more than 2 seconds that you were not screaming at the top of your lungs...and i was helpless to make anything better and that broke.my.heart.

you continued crying for the majority of your life---probably about 85% of the day---up until recently, praise god! that is behind us!! {with the random exception of the night time screaming}

you have become such a fun spirit that i LOVE being around!!
i simply cannot get enough of you---of your laugh, your handsome face, the way you have to run laps around the house every.single.time after you eat, how you never tire of me reading you your favorite book, how you always say, "hold me mommy. hold me." your love of music & dancing, how you grunt when you get frustrated, your love of being a big helper, basically, i LOVE everything about you.

you are my 2nd amazing.
you are my henry.
i could not be more in love with you.
and like i say to you & your brothers many times throughout the day,
i love you.
i'm proud of you.
you are amazing.
you make my heart happy.
i am so happy i get to be your mommy.
i have waited for you my whole life.

xoxoxo

{now, a funny side story...
i am one of those silly moms that remembers pretty much every.single.detail about my three amazings and if i question if i will absolutely, positively remember it, i write it down...
well, i OF COURSE remembered what my jake was wearing on the day he turned TWO :) and so would have planned on putting henry in the same shirt...but, the FUNNY thing is that sean got him dressed today & just happened {unless my hubbie is foolishly sentimental like me, which i am pretty sure, he isn't & it was just pure coincidence}
to put him in the exact.same.shirt that jake wore...}

be.still.my.happy.heart.

how.did.this.happen?

{jake at 1 week}

how is it possible, that my first amazing, my sweet jake, is starting pre-school tomorrow?
how is it possible that my little man, who i remember the exact moment i found out i was preggers with him, is now 3 1/2 years old and i will be driving to his first day of school tomorrow?
how.did.this.happen?
anyone who knows anything about me, knows that i don't want him to go.
i don't want to drive him to school tomorrow morning.
i don't want this day that i have been dreading for about 1 1/2 months now, to actually be here.
i don't want to be without him for 5 hours every week.
BUT, i also know that this is the best thing for him.
jake is so ready for this.
he is so ready to head out with his backpack on and walk towards new adventures...

{here's to this mommy keeping her sobs quiet enough on the way home, so my henry & william don't hear me...}