contentment.

sometimes for a stay-at-home mom, all we have is our imagination to take us places...
starbucks. a peaceful drive down the cape. a mountain lodge relaxing by the fireplace. a relaxing afternoon at the spa...

most often, my days look exactly the same---not much changes---having 3 babies so close in age is fairly limiting {for a season} nap schedules need to be kept, one may not be hungry when the other one is, plans may have been set {even a simple walk}, but a time-out or something else prevents it from happening...

monotony can be difficult.
self-sacrificing can be difficult.
putting our desires last can be difficult.
but that's exactly what being a mommy is---putting our wants/need second.
{some may disagree with me here and that's ok. this is just this mommy's rambling perspective}

i think it all comes down to contentment.
to being content---in exactly where you are for the time you are in it.

here's my truth---i LOVE being a mommy.
i was born to be a wife & a mom.
this is what gives me air to breathe.
this is what makes me feel an indescribable amount of joy.

but, here's my other truth---there are those moments when i am not fully content.
when i wish i could simply hop into my car & go where-ever the road wants to take me.
when i wish i could just sit & enjoy a hot cup of coffee in the exact moment i want it.
when i wish i could sleep for an entire night without being woken up by crying or screaming.
when i wish i could just browse through a magazine when the mood strikes.

but, here's the other truth---life.does.not.work.that.way.

some of my days can be difficult---crazy difficult---but, i am forever learning to be content...to be thankful for the season i am in...to embrace it.

when my boys are in school and i can go to starbucks whenever i want, when i can hop in the car and spend the afternoon shopping, when my days are flexible...i will be sad.
i will think back to these days and long for them.
i will sit back and remember how life use to be and i will wish i could go back in time.
THAT is when i will really have to learn to lesson of contentment. of truly being content.

here's to yet another life long journey---finding contentment---always.