one of "those" days.

today is just one of "those" days...
a day when all i hear in the house is screaming.
a day when all i hear in the house is crying.
a day when for some reason, since we started the day {way too early} one of my boys is not happy. one of my boys is frustrated.
a day when i am playing referee all day.
a day when i am forever reminded that i cannot make all of the crying stop.
a day when i cannot hold everyone that wants to be held---in that exact moment.
a day when i want to just step into the pantry {for just 2 simple minutes} and cry.
a day when i have to pray constantly---to stay patient. to stay thankful for.each.moment. to stay joyful.

days like this are just plain.old.difficult.

BUT, thankfully there are those moments {random as they may be on a day like this} when everything.is.simply.perfect.
when there are such precious times with them that i just sit, soak in the moment & savor it.
when there is such sweet sounds of all of us laughing.
when i look down at my william and he lights up when he sees me.
when i somehow manage to snuggle all 3 of my boys at the same time.

this.makes.me.happy.

i always.always.always try to appreciate exactly where i am in these days {through some tears}
i never.ever want to feel ok with wanting a certain stage/age to be over.
i never.ever want to not feel content for exactly where i am in life with these little lives god has blessed me with.
as l-o-n-g as these days can seem sometimes, they are fleeting.
they will be gone.
and i will be sad.

even now, i look back at pictures of my baby jake or my baby henry and i cry.
i cry because those days are over and i can't get them back.
they are growing way.too.quickly.

may i sit back, soak in, & savor every.single.minute i get with my babies today...