unbelievable.
love.
so.in.love.
consumed.with.love.
Monday, July 30, 2012
Friday, July 20, 2012
a few moments in our day.
after bouncing like a crazy monkey all.morning. henry fell asleep on the sofa.
was so tempted to bite these precious little things.
jake was showing his babies how to put on flip-flops.
i think he pretty much nailed it.
this william of ours is pretty much smothered with love all.day.long.
oh, to capture everything...how funny it would be!! ;)
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Monday, July 16, 2012
a jake. a carnival. a fun time.
this past saturday my sean took our jake to a carnival...
this little man of ours LOVES the rides!
cannot even believe how B-I-G he is getting.
when they got home, my other two amazings were in bed sleeping, so in this typical mommy style, i ran out to the driveway to meet them---i opened the truck door to see my little man holding a bag of popcorn and a lemonade---and in that.simple.moment.i realized my first little amazing is becoming a B-I-G BOY {sniff.sniff.}
and while they were out having fun, i was at home with my henry & my william having a bit of fun on our own...
blessed.
perfection.
this little man of ours LOVES the rides!
cannot even believe how B-I-G he is getting.
when they got home, my other two amazings were in bed sleeping, so in this typical mommy style, i ran out to the driveway to meet them---i opened the truck door to see my little man holding a bag of popcorn and a lemonade---and in that.simple.moment.i realized my first little amazing is becoming a B-I-G BOY {sniff.sniff.}
and while they were out having fun, i was at home with my henry & my william having a bit of fun on our own...
blessed.
perfection.
Sunday, July 15, 2012
my william.
i have started writing a letter to each of my amazings every month.
i write them in a journal and then when they are older, i will have every.single.letter i have ever written to them, in a special folder to give to them...
i LOVE that i have started this tradition :)
no matter how crazy hectic my life may get, i always want to take the time to write my thoughts to them---to document them on paper---what our days look like together, their favorite things to do for that month, how they are growing & maturing, struggles they may be going through, their favorite things to eat, how crazy madly in love i am with them---everything.
i will never share those sweet letters to my boys with anyone but them...
but, i always want to shout to the world just how amazing these three boys of mine are...
oh my sweet baby william, i cannot even believe how quickly my teeny tiny baby, my third amazing, is growing.
i remember the first time i laid eyes on you.
i remember the first time i snuggled you in the hospital.
it is incredible how you can fall in absolute unconditional love with someone immediately...like i did with you and your two amazing big brothers.
you are such an incredible blessing to our family.
i cannot even imagine life without you.
i am watching you grow everyday...i love watching you...my heart just feels so overwhelmed with joy and happiness...
you, are my wonderful, happy, content, third amazing and i could not love you any more.
i write them in a journal and then when they are older, i will have every.single.letter i have ever written to them, in a special folder to give to them...
i LOVE that i have started this tradition :)
no matter how crazy hectic my life may get, i always want to take the time to write my thoughts to them---to document them on paper---what our days look like together, their favorite things to do for that month, how they are growing & maturing, struggles they may be going through, their favorite things to eat, how crazy madly in love i am with them---everything.
i will never share those sweet letters to my boys with anyone but them...
but, i always want to shout to the world just how amazing these three boys of mine are...
oh my sweet baby william, i cannot even believe how quickly my teeny tiny baby, my third amazing, is growing.
i remember the first time i laid eyes on you.
i remember the first time i snuggled you in the hospital.
you are such an incredible blessing to our family.
i cannot even imagine life without you.
i am watching you grow everyday...i love watching you...my heart just feels so overwhelmed with joy and happiness...
you, are my wonderful, happy, content, third amazing and i could not love you any more.
Saturday, July 14, 2012
like big brother....?
the other day i had my william sitting in his bumbo chair watching me do some work in the kitchen, when i had a flashback to my jake sitting in the bumbo wearing the same shirt...so, i ran to find the hat i remembered jake was wearing {yes, i remember pictures---usually down to the last detail---in my head} and put it on my william...
any resemblance?
....now if only i had captured my henry in the same thing... :(
any resemblance?
....now if only i had captured my henry in the same thing... :(
Monday, July 9, 2012
thoughts from a mommy of three amazings.
what a blessing it is to be a stay-at-home mom.
i am so thankful.
as i was doing some journaling this weekend, i was thinking about my love for these boys of mine...
a long time ago, when me & my mom were talking about it, she described my love perfectly...it is such a dramatic fierce love.
a dramatic.fierce.love.
there are times, to be honest, when i can feel so consumed with this love, that it actually takes my breath away.
i'm not an anxious person.
BUT, the thought of something happening to one of these boys of mine can literally send me into such an incredible---panic.
panic.
the only word to describe how that thought makes me feel.
i am always striving to be the best mom that i can be for them...as i think every parent should...BUT...BUT...i can once again {given my personality} take this to an extreme.
here's my reality...i have set myself up---for failure.
i have for so long, expected myself and required myself to be a perfect mom.
perfection.
possible as a parent?
unfortunately, not.
this has been an extremely hard lesson for me to learn over the past 4 months {with my sean's help}
my heart would get so wounded if i felt frustrated with one of these amazings. i once again, had set myself up to believe---to truly believe---that i would never.ever feel frustrated with my children.
sean, my family, & my close friends would try to explain to me that feeling
frustrated is absolutely.positively.ok. it's how as a mom, you deal with that frustration. THAT is the important thing.
i try my hardest every.single.day. sometimes it is every.single.minute at some points during our day, to not get frustrated...and i am so sad to admit, that i have at times, failed.
to me, the most important thing, is to let them know when i have failed and to sincerely apologize to them for it.
how can a parent not apologize to their child when a child is expected to apologize to a parent for being naughty or disrespectful?
i think it is so important to say, "i am sorry. i am sorry for getting frustrated with you. i am sorry. will you please forgive me?" {this is usually accompanied with me hugging one of them and crying}
i mean, when the chaotic, crazy moment has passed, you look at those presh faces and think...how the heck could i get frustrated??
now, i know this seems to be going on & on, but track with me for a bit longer....
in my constant journey to be the best mom for these 3 boys that i have been blessed with, i am always prayerful to be patient. to correct with love. to discipline with love---not frustration. that is key.
thankfully, these amazings of mine are more than happy to extent grace to their mommy and say, "i forgive you, mommy."
as i think about parenting, i think how blessed i was to have had the gift of an amazing mother. wow, were laura & i ever blessed growing up. my mother had a passion for mothering. did she make mistakes along the way?...sure. BUT, i do remember her apologizing to us for those mistakes. i may not remember her apologizing to me when i was tiny like my 3 boys, BUT, she has apologized to us as adults for those mistakes. how beautiful is that? and isn't that the thing that is important?
we get one chance at raising our children. one.
parents have the ability to make or break their child. {to a certain degree}
parents can so damage that relationship---starting from when their children are tiny.
how frightening is that?
the thought of damaging my relationship with one of my boys sickens me. it literally makes me sick.
i know i will make mistakes as they grow.
i know i will say something to hurt them.
BUT, i want to always be mindful to NOT do that.
to always be mindful of what i say to them and how i say it.
and most importantly, to apologize.
as mom's, we have been given such an incredible gift.
i think to mother well, we need to have such an incredible passion for mothering.
there are those times when we get hit with everything all.at.once.
when we want more than anything to just hop in the car and get away---even for if only 5 minutes---and i am learning that.is.ok.
those times can be so rejuvenating.
and so necessary.
there are so many things i am constantly learning on this journey of motherhood...
may i always learn.
i am so thankful.
as i was doing some journaling this weekend, i was thinking about my love for these boys of mine...
a long time ago, when me & my mom were talking about it, she described my love perfectly...it is such a dramatic fierce love.
a dramatic.fierce.love.
there are times, to be honest, when i can feel so consumed with this love, that it actually takes my breath away.
i'm not an anxious person.
BUT, the thought of something happening to one of these boys of mine can literally send me into such an incredible---panic.
panic.
the only word to describe how that thought makes me feel.
i am always striving to be the best mom that i can be for them...as i think every parent should...BUT...BUT...i can once again {given my personality} take this to an extreme.
here's my reality...i have set myself up---for failure.
i have for so long, expected myself and required myself to be a perfect mom.
perfection.
possible as a parent?
unfortunately, not.
this has been an extremely hard lesson for me to learn over the past 4 months {with my sean's help}
my heart would get so wounded if i felt frustrated with one of these amazings. i once again, had set myself up to believe---to truly believe---that i would never.ever feel frustrated with my children.
sean, my family, & my close friends would try to explain to me that feeling
frustrated is absolutely.positively.ok. it's how as a mom, you deal with that frustration. THAT is the important thing.
i try my hardest every.single.day. sometimes it is every.single.minute at some points during our day, to not get frustrated...and i am so sad to admit, that i have at times, failed.
to me, the most important thing, is to let them know when i have failed and to sincerely apologize to them for it.
how can a parent not apologize to their child when a child is expected to apologize to a parent for being naughty or disrespectful?
i think it is so important to say, "i am sorry. i am sorry for getting frustrated with you. i am sorry. will you please forgive me?" {this is usually accompanied with me hugging one of them and crying}
i mean, when the chaotic, crazy moment has passed, you look at those presh faces and think...how the heck could i get frustrated??
now, i know this seems to be going on & on, but track with me for a bit longer....
in my constant journey to be the best mom for these 3 boys that i have been blessed with, i am always prayerful to be patient. to correct with love. to discipline with love---not frustration. that is key.
thankfully, these amazings of mine are more than happy to extent grace to their mommy and say, "i forgive you, mommy."
as i think about parenting, i think how blessed i was to have had the gift of an amazing mother. wow, were laura & i ever blessed growing up. my mother had a passion for mothering. did she make mistakes along the way?...sure. BUT, i do remember her apologizing to us for those mistakes. i may not remember her apologizing to me when i was tiny like my 3 boys, BUT, she has apologized to us as adults for those mistakes. how beautiful is that? and isn't that the thing that is important?
we get one chance at raising our children. one.
parents have the ability to make or break their child. {to a certain degree}
parents can so damage that relationship---starting from when their children are tiny.
how frightening is that?
the thought of damaging my relationship with one of my boys sickens me. it literally makes me sick.
i know i will make mistakes as they grow.
i know i will say something to hurt them.
BUT, i want to always be mindful to NOT do that.
to always be mindful of what i say to them and how i say it.
and most importantly, to apologize.
as mom's, we have been given such an incredible gift.
i think to mother well, we need to have such an incredible passion for mothering.
there are those times when we get hit with everything all.at.once.
when we want more than anything to just hop in the car and get away---even for if only 5 minutes---and i am learning that.is.ok.
those times can be so rejuvenating.
and so necessary.
there are so many things i am constantly learning on this journey of motherhood...
may i always learn.
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