i wish my three amazings would stay little forever.
time seems to be slipping away from me.
and by "slipping," i really mean, "running, as fast as it can, without stopping, without slowing down, without looking back--even for a second---just disappearing."
...and that makes me sad.
i guess you could say it's a bit selfish, and maybe it is...
i want my days to always be like this.
maybe not exactly.like.this...but i don't want much to change.
i want these three amazings of mine to be home with me all.day.every.day. for a long time...and i know it can't, won't, and shouldn't be like that...but that's what i want.
time, please.stand.still.
my days are usually quite monotonous at home with these three little men of ours...not much changes in the day to day...there is always an almost unbearable amount of L-O-U-D noise throughout the house...i find myself having to say the exact.same.thing many,many times throughout the day...there is almost always a certain amount of stress that i feel in making sure everyone stays safe, that nobody gets hurt---especially when i am having to feed william and my henry is bouncing like a crazy ball on the sofa or i am having to play referee between jake & henry...i am forever trying to think of things to keep my easily bored boys entertained...doing diaper changing trains...and the list goes on.
and for some reason, i don't want this to change. i just don't.
i am constantly sharing this "struggle" or "sadness" with my family and they are always reminding me that i will enjoy every single stage/age and that i should look back on the times that have passed with happiness, not with sadness...and they are also forever saying that they think when these times are behind me, i will look back and think, "wow! how did i do that?---having 3 babies in 32 months!!"
time, please.stand.still.
...even in these days that start with so many "challenges"...when the amount of noise in this house can seem somewhat unbearable...when the insane amount of lack of sleep i get every.single.night starts to catch up with me...when each amazing of mine needs something at the exact.same.moment...when i am so hungry i feel pain in my stomach and yet there is not one.single.second for me to grab something for myself...
i stop.
i take a deep breath.
i close my eyes.
and then i think...
i think how these days will be gone---soon!---and i will be sad.
savor.every.moment.
sweet moments.
the things that bring this mommy's heart such joy & happiness.
i savor these.
{slow dancing with my henry}
{on a sweet date at the beach with my jake}
{snuggling my william}
these moments refresh my heart.
so.thankful.
